year over year
The picture above is a comparison photo taken just about exactly one year apart(last year and yesterday) I did that on purpose because I’m growing my hair out and it’s driving me crazy and it feels like it isn’t growing at all.
But it isn’t often that I reflect on exactly where I was one year ago to the day.
Do you ever just stare at a picture of you from the past and wonder if you’re any happier today than that day? Are you in a better place? How have things changed?
What could I whisper in the ear of that short haired woman?
As in any year, there have been many ups and downs. This has been a very challenging year for me. Most of the challenges have come since that picture was taken. Dad’s chemo stopped working. I quit my job and took a big leap into the unknown. I moved. There have been challenges with the teens and husband(s). I’ve had more counseling this year than any other time in my life. Paid friends to the rescue!!
Sometimes I wish I could have a 100 ft view of what’s going on to give me some different perspective. Sometimes I wish for a crystal ball. Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and make some different choices.
Alas, of course none of that is possible and that’s fine too. I’m a big believer that life is all about stretching the boundaries of your existence, experiencing the shit and the great and learning and growing. So even tho sometimes it all feels like shit, you have to have the shit in order to have the great stuff.
I can say for sure that I’m not the same person I was in that picture from last year and I’m really happy about that. My life is working out just as it should-with the shit and the great stuff and challenges. All contributing to a LIFE LIVED TO THE EDGES sort of thing. I wouldn’t want anything else.
So my hair is growing so that’s a good thing. I don’t think I look any older either, so that’s a good thing too.
And I earned every one of those grey hairs.